So this morning I woke up after have an ok night of going out and dancing for a friends birthday (drama got in the way and made the evening not so fun for a long time) feeling stressed out and apprehensive of the day. It feels like one of those days that if I want it to go the way I want it to I am going to have to be a dick to do it. This is a situation that I am never particularly fond of since I will preemptive feel shitty and guilty about the things I want to do and simultaneously be pissed that that same feeling may prevent me from leading the day as I want to. This situation leads to me wasting a lot of time being ridiculously indecisive because I can’t get past the emotion baggage.

Times like me piss me off more than most other things because it goes very much against a lot of what I stand for, namely don’t waste your time and don’t let things stand in the way of you enjoying your life. I guess its part 2 that gets me in trouble because I don’t know what I will enjoy more being pissed about not doing what I want or feeling guilty.